Froggy Blogs

10/16/2025

Helloooooo website! I have been so busy with school and managing my time that I haven't had any to spare! I still want to revamp this site and make it look a little neater, but who knows when that will be done..... I am really enjoying my biology classes and have been finding ways to expand my learning outside the classroom. Things are going pretty good for me right now besides the horrors, but we carry on!

OHHHHH I got to see MCR in August and I wanted to post about how much that changed my life. I made several longwinded posts on my tumblr about it, but it was a once in a lifetime experience that I feel really healed that stupid edgy teenager in my soul. I remember in middle school joking with my friends about an MCR reunion; at the time it was so out of the realm of possibility. I am really so glad I stayed alive. I want to see a full lore breakdown of the tour because it was so story heavy and really detailed. Overall things are going really good for me. I am trying to find joy in the little things despite the state of the world.

I am getting excited for Halloween, although I haven't had much time for my movie binge I had planned. I wish I wasn't so tired all the time, but it is worth it for the degree. ANYWWAYS... I plan on reworking this site bit by bit, don't expect anything major for a while. I'm going to make some updates to the Frog Zone page so it's less empty. Thank you for browsing; I hope to make this a more enjoyable site soon :D

06/16/2025

This week I got see Pierce the Veil + Sleeping with Sirens live for the first time. IT WAS AWESOME! I had such a great time dancing and yelling and singing; I felt so free. I loooooove concerts and live music in general, but this has been on my bucket list since middle school. I get to see My Chemical Romance in two months, and I can't wait to yap about that. TWO bucket list concerts in one year, my heart can't take it.٩( ᗒᗨᗕ )۶ Concerts are one of the few judgement free places that still exist to me. Anyways, just a little life update for today, things are going great!

05/17/2025

Helloooooo again website :D I am feeling a lot happier since last time I wrote. Starting summer classes soon which will help me get on track with my biology degree. I am so excited for this; I feel much more connected to my sense of self and my love of life. I can't believe it's taken me so long to learn how to do the things I want to do, but I feel so FREE! Seriously, it is so important to take control of your life; it's never too late, but don't let life just pass you by. Seize the moment and take risks! Find the motivation within yourself because searching for it from others will never work. I feel more at ease. I feel so much less anxiety. I know the sciences are a bit of a hot topic right now, and job security is a huge concern for people currently in the field. However, I KNOW this is important work, and I hope one day the rest of the world can see how important research, experimentation, and discovery truly is. I love love love learning every day. I feel passionate about bettering the world and protecting endangered species. I know there is a looooong road ahead of me before I even get the chance to really work with animals, but I am excited.

While I haven't had a lot of time to work on this website, I hope to be able to give it a bit of a face lift soon. I am going to restart some CSS courses and MAYBE try again to learn Javascript. I am content with the current appearance of this website, but I do wish it was a bit more -- personable? I want the site to feel exciting to visit. Currently it's a bit bland and I can accept that. As always -- Stay tuned!

04/08/2025

Dearest website I have not forgotten you! I have been dealing with a bit of life stresses lately. Trying to manage but sometimes it feels so overwhelming to be a person. I love being on the web where I don't have to be a person. Here I am a frog. I am THE frog! I have been thinking a lot lately about living life for me, learning to accept who I am, and embracing my insecurities. I am learning how to be more comfortable with stepping out of my comfort zone, as weird as that may sound. Over the past few weeks, I decided to change my major to Biology. This is not an easy choice and it's not going to be easy for me to accomplish, but it is something that I am really and truly passionate about and want to do with my life. I want to work with animals, I want to research and learn every day. I care a lot about the planet and trying to make a more beautiful world. And I am so so so so sick of living my life the way other people tell me to. I have to embrace my thoughts and feelings and stay true to them. Change is inevitable, and I have to learn to be okay with that.

01/19/2025

I'm using this space to talk about whatever I want! Today I am talking about anger. I have been feeling a lot of anger lately. I am frustrated at the lack of care people have for others. The world is not all bad, but we are becoming more and more isolated. People seem to lack consideration for how their actions impact others. Not to state the obvious, but the people in power do not care about us. I feel like I am seeing this more and more everyday; they're not very good at hiding it. This lack of care for people has led to a growing amount of anger in everyday people. Road rage is becoming more common, violence is up, hatecrimes are only ever increasing. What frustrates me most is how easily people can redirect their anger and blame their neighbors, colleagues, even friends for the state of the world. Newsflash asshole! We're all getting treated like shit!

I'm not going to sit here and act like I am immune to feeling anger towards regular people, but we have to remind ourselves who's really responsible for the shitty state of the world. It's not your neighbors fault grocery prices are going up, it's not the fault of some kid on the street that the school system is in shambles. Look at the assholes at the top, see where their money is (or isn't) going, see who really controls the government. I am so sick of the infighting and divide over shit that does not matter. Gay and trans people existing has no effect on if I can afford eggs this week. A black person walking down the street has no effect on if my landlord will fix an emergency maintenance request before it becomes a danger. A muslim seeking a place of worship has no effect on if my car is going to start this morning. Maybe I'm missing something, but I will never understand WHY we choose to focus on this stupid shit when a majority of the country cannot afford to live. I want people to have access to medical care, a safe place to live, and enough food to feed their family. I want people to have unrestricted access to education and opportunity. I want people to be able to freely express their love for the world in whatever way they see fit.

Burnout Blog

I feel like a great person to speak about this because I’ve been in what I consider a creative block for the past 4 years. I was still making things for my college art classes during this time, and they weren’t bad pieces, but there was no passion behind what I was doing. Art became very methodical to me, it became a task rather than a hobby. I started thinking way too much about how I can profit off my art, how to make things other people want, and overall just feeling unhappy with my skills.

My middle school and high school sketchbooks were full of original characters, story building, and emotional expression. I spent the first part of COVID lockdown learning new skills and trying to keep my mind active, but as the isolation continued, I felt my creative drive slipping away. So I stopped creating. I stopped drawing, sewing, crocheting, even using coloring books. I just didn’t find the energy or willpower in me to keep doing it. I felt like if my skills weren’t good enough to monetize why even do it? This is of course not true, and creativity is one of the most important things we can hold on to.

I started college hoping the studio classes would keep me thinking and keep me creating, and they certainly did, but I was only thinking about my art in terms of improving some skill so I could market it. That’s not to say it’s wrong to want to sell your art; I mean who doesn’t, but that need for approval kept me from challenging myself to go further.

When your creative drive disappears, the one thing that really helps is to do something else. I started making a website because I was getting bored of digital illustrations, and now I have a new skill in web design that I didn’t have before. I’ve found myself drawing more just to have stuff to put on here, and I’m constantly thinking about what I can add. Web design has lead to me further studying HTML, CSS, and Java; eventually I’d like to study back-end coding as well. If web design and drawing seems too bleh, I have started animating as well. It’s so important to have multiple creative outlets. Focusing on one medium or tool for too long is what often leads me to vicious burnout.

And of course the hardest thing to overcome in creative burnout is the fear of not being good enough. This is a constant struggle. It is so difficult to not compare myself to other artists, but that fear is what stops me completely from creating. When I need inspiration, looking to other artists can be great, but comparing my outcome to theirs is what often causes me to stop completely.

Things to Remember

• Just remember: there’s no rules to art.
• My art is good because I say so.
• I can try whatever I want and it’s okay if it doesn’t work out.
• My message does not have to appeal to other people.
• My story is my own.

These are the ideas I want to be driving my art going forward, not the fear and anxiety.